marriage

After questioning my existence for a very long time I have some of my answers but still, I am not satisfied with the results. Sometimes I feel too stuck and lost and it feels like my life is not moving forward. I don’t know where my life is heading because when you work on the invisible energies then you can’t see the results on paper. The memory which exists within my body is not programmed to handle the work which I do and that’s the only reason I feel directionless though at times the universe talks directly to me by means of messages.

It is very late I understand the concept of energy, frequency, and vibration. I am still learning. I don’t have any idea as to in which class I am but still there is a long way to go. After initiation, you need to work on your own body so that you activate those energy systems which will change your total being. The process of initiation is more like planting a seed into your system which can be either done by a Guru or the universe depending on the need and then the seed will be transformed into a tree and bear flowers and fruits.

Life is much more mysterious than you know. I never understood the meaning of Starseed or the chosen ones until everything changed in my life. Better or worse I did choose it but never planned it. Every mystical experience which has started happening in my life after 2015 is something that gives me goosebumps. I pose the same question again and again. Am I a normal human being? Am I the same person which existed before 30th December 2015? Who am I? I can’t feel like a human being. The things which I dream for or plan are something that a normal human being would never plan or dare to plan.

Your life is nothing but a combination of choices that you made. Be happy with your present self because it was you who chose that life. There are many things that will work and many which won’t. It is useless crying over how far you would have gone if you had a picture-perfect life and things went according to your plan. When I look back at my life I conclude that the unplanned part took away my mental peace and good health. The universe always has so much in store for me that I keep wondering what they are up to.

Happy Women’s Day. The word women were coined to represent females but they are much more than nurturers or service providers. They are the ones to keep the societies intact because they bond from the heart. It is good to see males appreciating females for all the good work they do but they can never understand how much a woman has to struggle when she wants to add extra feathers to her cap and want to take up a work that has not been taken by anyone till date. Society then starts judging them and demotivates them that you can’t do it because no one else did it till today.

I don’t remember the past in which I have lived but my God says the present life is a continuation of my past life which I have lived thousands of years ago. I am born again for a very specific purpose in the same body which exists now but with a different identity. I am not who you think I am but someone else but I can’t prove it nor will I prove it. It was divine will for me to be a part of this world that exists now. This is my last birth to achieve salvation which was planned by none other than the man who changed my life for a lifetime, “Anantha”.

I strongly believe marriages are sacred bonds made in heaven. God plays the role of matchmaker to bring two people in each other’s life together. You know about all the ways on how to get your perfect match but here I want to discuss the concept which very few people follow i.e working on your energies to get your right match. The universe is composed of energy and the person whom you want to manifest in your life is also energy so it is better to let the universe do its work and you do your work.

I have worked on my energies for a very long time. My spiritual work started slowly in the year 2015 and then got fast-paced in the year 2019. I have done lots of spiritual work, be it meditation, yoga, idol worship, connecting with divine energies, mantra meditation. Almost everything which a normal person of my age can never think of. I married the man whom I loved since my school days and had a live-in relationship with him for a long time. Even after dating him for 10 years, he cheated on me.

I went to see Durga Puja Pandal today and as I reached midway something amazing happened. I saw a chariot waiting for me to take me to my home. Is it real or again a fantasy? I told you people that I have not slept properly for the last 20 days. The Sleep-deprived body always creates problems for me. Guess who is sitting on the chariot? It is my better half whom I married on 6/10/2019 (Durga Ashtami). Got the person? Not yet? I think you people have also lost your sleep like I have lost mine.